~Hardest Thing to Do~

Take the very hardest thing in your life – the place of difficulty, outward or inward, and expect God to triumph gloriously in that very spot.  Just there He can bring your soul into blossom.

Lilias Trotter

picture by @bekahbphoto

There are things that hards for me to do. One afternoon when I was working, I was thinking of myself... what am I "doing" recently because time goes so fast and I don't want to miss thing that God is going to do in my life. I pulled myself out from my working and simply staring outside from the window. I was thinking, God...what exactly I am doing right now? then my mind started to compare my life with others - in every part of my life. Hmm...I don't need to do that actually, says the depth of my heart...let's start from something small from my life...there's an area that I am truly aware that I still need to surrender to God...I am tired of asking God, fix this and that area of my life. I've been praying and asking God to show me if I am too blind to see it. There are 4 areas that I think I need to surrender to God, it's hard for me to work on these and sometimes what I need is put down my gun and raise my hands to God.

Be A Selfless Person.

When it comes to everyday life, I wish I have a machine or robot who tells me "Eva, you being selfish..." but that's silly thing I ever thought - that's why Jesus went to heaven so Holy Spirit plays His role as a reminder for us. All we need to do is stick around Him. Because there some other things that I can't even see the lines of doing it for me, or pleasing other people or glorify God. Loving-kindness, caring and serving like Jesus, that's all I want to be... I believe He can help me for this everyday, and it's so much better to hurt with purpose.

Be An Effective Person.

This is such a struggle for me. I get so many distractions from this modern life, and if I am not so careful with my schedule, I will miss something that I think it'll be more important to do for the day. I think having a journal, and set my mind how long I should do things will be a big help perhaps, because at the end I'll have more quality time with my beloved ones and of course to spend time with God. 
I hate myself when I am too tired to be with people I love and not really enjoy it.  Or when I feel like I am free and I don't have lot of things to do and I ended up watching show for hours, or be on phone scroll down and seeing other people's lives..oh poor poor me (haha - laughing at myself)....rather than organize closet, pantry, or clean windows, writing cards friends who far away from me, or spending time with a friend, loving on them and encouraging them. So I am praying for this that I need God so so much in this area. 

Be A Person who Pray more for others not for myself.

This one...  I just want to say that I am so so captured by the prayer of Jesus before he suffered in John 17. I can't find self-centered thing in this prayer. He poured out little bit of His heart to His Father and the rest He prayed for others and others. 
One day, I found I am too much pray for myself, ask God to work things in my life, and fix this and that, for Him to help me during difficult times...there's nothing wrong about it because Jesus said  in John 14:14 "if you ask anything in My name, I will do it " But yet, this can go wrong if we ask everything just for ourselves being happy, nice, and settled. God also wants us to grow through suffering. I remember one time I have my prayer journal and now not anymore....that's so sad I think. Today I asked myself to get back on my prayer journal - it helps alot for me to remember and help for me to see how God works in people life through my prayers.

Calm Myself When Panic.

Actually I only wrote 3 things above but as I wrote this post my husband texted me and he said he lost his backpack at airport. I am more panic of my husband being upset and devastated, not because what's in the backpack ( I am but not much :)) because he'll go through rough weekend. I was going to clean the house and make some corn soup but then my spirit deflated. I was panic, and thinking that he probably has some important things that he needs for this weekend, how he will make it and what about if he needs things... So started to calm myself, I stopped worry about and praying to God for the peace in both our hearts, we did what we could do, the rest we let God works on it. It's hard to calm myself when I am so much worried, I feel paralyzed to walk my day yet I remind myself that God is in control and all I need to do is calm myself and pray.

Dear Lord Jesus,
Do whatever You want to do with my heart.
Break it, shape it, and make it to be more like yours.



My Little Journey of Bible Time

~Do not work for the food that perishes, but for the food that endures to eternal life, which the Son of Man will give to you. For on him God the Father has set his seal.~ John 6:27

There are so many verses about how powerful God's word is but tonight I decided the verse of John 6:27. Food, every creature needs food, they found comforts in food that's something I can relate with my everyday life that how much I need God, even just to put my contacts or cook for my husband hehe. I love that Jesus also was saying that all we need just Him and Him alone. Doesn't mean that we don't need to work and not take care of ourselves. It's just about how intentionally we get to be with God, sit at His feet, lean to His heart, and listening. 

Me, myself still struggling to read my Bible intentionally (that's why I called Little Journey because I know that I need to dig more and get to feel His heart's beat). I'm praying that Holy Spirit help to push myself to defeat my flesh and be with the Word of God.  One of things that help me to enjoy my reading time is spot and time.  Here I can share some of my favorite spots and why :) I hope you are having fun reading this. 

Before marriage life, I have two favorite spots and those two only. In my room it can be on my desk or on my bed, sometimes on the floor, the second is on the roof! Roof?! yes haha I like to see sunrise and sunset, there my place to be with God with no noise and just quiet. So after married, I have a partner to read with so it is more than 2 spots.

Rocking chair by the window (which is in the picture) 

I love this spot especially in the morning where the Sun bursting through the trees from my back yard and goes through the window, you can feel its warmth and the birds singing. All I can think is Jesus you are so beautiful...it put my mood to spend longer time with the Word :)

 A table  in the kitchen 

Breakfast time... I usually have breakfast time with my husband before he leaves to work and we LOVE to read together. We are now doing Bible from Genesis - Revelation and now we are almost finish2 Kings. Woohoo! I sometimes make a joke that we should go celebrate if we finish old testament :D haha.  Alright, before we start our breakfast we read together. 

My Desk or My working Area

This is mostly happen when I am caught with my work. Sometimes, I feel like I can't read in the middle of a mess or when my mind keep telling me me...I need to finish, I need to finish. I simply ordered myself "REST" it's good pause my busyness and be with God even though just 5 minutes. It's powerful when you really open your heart and be ready for that 5 minutes. 

In the bedroom.

This is before bed time, my husband and I do prayer time and read Bible together. It's beautiful after such a long day and you finally rest and lift your heart and be thankful for what He has done.

So that's my little journey of reading Bible. I know someday if we have kids this and that will change but I pray that our hearts to know His word more never fade away...

How do you like to read your Bible? :)


Story of Watercolor

I am grateful for my watercolor journey, I get to know God as an amazing Artist. All His works are everywhere in this world and the universe never ceases to amaze me.

I've been creating so many watercolors recently. I found a new hobby. I do have a story behind this watercolor. With a smile on my face, I want to say that I am seeing God brought me to this level of life where I can use my art to glorify Him. 

Here are some of my designs.

I made Wedding Monogram for a friend in NY who's getting married soon! 

The words on these paintings are from a devotion called Comparison Trap by Sandra Stanley.
This study blessed my heart so much that I created this watercolor.

During this watercolor journey, I get to know Lilias Trotter. I found this beautiful quote and I put into a painting. The day after I gave a piece of this art work to a friend then I found out that Lilias Trotter was a watercolor artist. A Victorian lady who moved to Africa and left her prestigious life to be a missionary. So I bought a book called A Blossom in the Desert which tells her journey through writing and art.

Many years ago, when I was 9, I loved journaling my days. It's kinda my everyday conversation with God that I can pour into words and drawings. I kept doing that until I found this blog where I share my journey with God with pictures :) 

These are 'Thank You' cards that I made for birthday gifts.

These are random designs.

Yeah, I love writing and drawing. At that time, I never had the chance to play with paint or brushes until one day a lady from my church took me to a house that they needed to empty. She took me there because the lady who owned that house was a seamstress that owned a bunch of sewing stuff. There in that room were some watercolor paints. I grabbed them, just two sets... I never used them until one day a friend asked me to make Christmas Party invitations/postcards. That's when I decided to use watercolor for the first time... and I really liked it! 

I've been exploring with watercolor since then. You can see more of my works on my Instagram account @delvalina37. So far I've been giving away my works for those who God lays on my heart. My goal is to tell them they're valued and loved by God...

Let's see where God can take me? 
You never know... He always has amazing plans that He paints in our life :)

During my troubled days, these words were loud in my head.

That's all I can share for today :) Which one is your favorite? 


Tea Cup Exchange

Last month I decided to join this blog event. My dear friend Stephanie from The Enchanting Rose created this event and arranged all ladies all over the world. Isn't that cool? :) I have known this event couple years ago but I never had the chance to join when I lived in Indonesia till I moved here. I signed up for tea and mug exchange so I got 2 ladies here. I am glad that one of them sent me thank you card and another one always keep in touch with me through email and we love to sharing our favorite things - which is fun! 

It's more than what I expected! My first experience " I LOVED IT" like I expecting the packages to come and when it came I felt like Christmas haha. So I opened the boxes and I smiled for every item that the ladies sent me. Especially the notes - it's my most favorite part.

So here is from Esther from Dolly Creates - she sent me darling things and I love every single item. If you click her blog she has amazing blog and and talented to make dress especially vintage dresses.
Thank you Esther! This made me happy!


The second one is from Libby,
I love how she introduced herself to me :) I Loved all her handmade items that stolen my heart, and also the mug! Thank you for all these goodies!

This tea cup exchange made my day! and I really thanked to God for my friend Stephanie - God has used you to bring smile in every lady's face! I can't wait for the next exchange party!



~ The Master and Me ~

The young lions lack and suffer hunger;
But those who seek the LORD shall not lack any good thing. 
-Psalm 34 :10-

Our trip to Asheville is one of my favorite memories from my honeymoon. While driving we laughed, talked about our dreams and future, and sung our favorite songs. Sweet memories indeed :)  Whenever this memory comes across my mind, it always puts a big smile on my face.  All the sweet memories remind me that He is a good, good Father... this is just a small piece of His faithfulness in my life and I believe there are many more blessings to come.

When we visited the Biltmore Estate, I was amazed by the every detail of the house. The majestic front door, the windows, every room, even the garden– and not only me, everyone there stood in awe. I wondered, "Who is the master?" This building consists of simple pieces that transform it all into something majestic.  

Looking through all the pictures and sweet memories... I am amazed for what the Lord has done to me. I am fragile, easily broken, but my Master– He is the the Master of masters. He can grab the broken pieces and turn them into something majestic. 

If today I own the world and tomorrow I lose it, what does it matter?
My Master never changes, He is still there...
He is the only One that really matters. 

As I write this, I encourage myself in that I shouldn't be worried because I have seen how my Master worked in the past. He is still there and always will be! :) Reminds me of the verse at the top, "... those who seek the Lord shall not lack any good thing."


~Handmade Shabby Chic Wallet~

Dear friends,
It has been awhile since I posted any crafting or sewing projects. Well, I have been crafting and sewing, but I never had the chance to take pictures and show you. :)

I am really happy to have my sewing and crafting corner - it's a place where ideas pop in my mind– my happy place.

Today I finished making a wallet. I own a small purse and big wallet which bothers me... so, I decided to make my own, smaller wallet!


This is what I used: fabric, thread, cardboard, double sided tape, lace and ribbon.


First, I designed the shape. I wanted it to look like my passport case so I drew the shapes on the cardboard and cut them out.

Second, I covered the cardboard with fabric using double stick tape and combined both sides together. This is where I added the pockets too.

Now, after you put them together, sew the edges with ribbon. 

I also created a flower design from lace for the latch to keep it closed.

After sewing the sides, I put lace around the ribbon.

All done!


I hope you are inspired to create something beautiful.  

~Let all that you do be done in love~
1 Corinthians 16:4



~My Portion Forever~

~Whom have I in heaven but You?
And there is none upon earth 
that I desire besides You~
Psalm 73:25

This is one of my favorite verses. Imagine that Jesus is your heart's only desire all the time. All that you can see through your eyes is His beauty. :)

One thing I pray constantly is: "Dear Lord Jesus, please keep my heart close to You and never let me go." I know my life is falling apart without Him. Sometimes there are moments when I don't feel connected to His heart. I feel empty and desperate. When the sorrow and pain come, they make me feel even worse. The enemy is looking at me and ready to do me in... My heart is crying– crying, "God, I need You, please help me!"  I am there sometimes... but Jesus always wins. I do know that He has so many ways to save me and has saved me. Remember that! :)

I try to keep my heart constantly close to Him– even though the hard times. I read my Bible even though I don't feel like it. I pray even though there are many things distracting me. I even made a place for myself to clear my mind and my soul, remember My Sewing Corner? I use that little corner for me to meditate on His word, a place where I feel encouraged and can think of Him.


When my soul was embittered,
when I was pricked in heart,
I was brutish and ignorant;
I was like a beast toward you.
Nevertheless, I am continually with you;
you hold my right hand.
You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will receive me to glory. 
Whom have I in heaven but you?
And there is nothing on earth that 
I desire besides you.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart 
and my portion forever.
Psalm 73:21-26 

Dear friends,  I have everything I want now (it seems), but it's still not enough without Him :) I feel like I am hunting His presence day by day. Have you ever felt the same way? Tell me how do you keep your heart close to Him? How do you pursue Him when there's a wall in the front of you?

Our hearts long for Him, but sometimes the world creates a border. I am sure He loves us and He made the way to find us... even when our hearts are grieved and we don't know how to find Him.


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