When I could not prayer for myself, He prayed for me.

I cannot sleep tonight, even I have tried to close my eyes for more less 3 minutes, A lot of things.
I'm worried too much things and it was a distraction for my relationship with God. I have tried to pray about it, I even try harder but I couldn't take control of myself...so I surrender.

Lord, I wonder if You pray for me tonight...

Please help me and please save me.
I need you.

Lord I come, I confess
Bowing here I find my rest
Without You I fall apart
You're the one that guides my heart

Where sin runs deep, Your grace is more
Where grace is found is where You are
And where You are Lord I am free
Holiness is Christ in me
Yes where You are Lord I am free
Holiness is Christ in me

Lord, I need You, oh I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

So teach my song to rise to You
When temptation comes my way
And when I cannot stand I'll fall on You
Jesus You're my hope and stay
And when I cannot stand I'll fall on You
Jesus You're my hope and stay 


If I could make a call to You

Dear Lord Jesus,

You know I am here,
You see the depth of my heart,
You see my tiring soul.

I need you tonight,
I need Your wishper to calm my heart.
What could I do without You.

You see? I need You all the times.
I want You here...
Now and tomorrow...

If i could make a call to you, l would have sweet chat with You . I'm hunger and thirsty of You.
I love You

Your beloved princess,


~ A Prayer~

Heavenly Father,
Thank you that I can learn just what it means to walk in step with You along Your path.
I want to learn to know myself better and accept myself once more,
and in the process discover how well You know me, how much You love me.
From now on I want to follow in Your footsteps and become quiet in Your presence.
I am willing to give up my own agenda, obey Your will and be Your witness.
I praise You that You are always in control,
also when things sometimes get out of hand.
Make me absolutely dependent on You and willing to place my whole life on the Spirit's control. Please warn me against dangerous distraction, because Lord, You know I am all yours! I want to practice all living a life dedicated to fetch me. Teach me to choose Your road every day and to keep my eyes on Jesus when I become tired and lose heart. Determine my path in life and help me up with all my heart. Thank you that I may count on the sunshine of Your goodness even while climbing the steepest hill.
I look forward with great longing to the day that I will meet You face to face,
when my road in life will end in heaven



Hello my dear friends,

Finally I'm back here, I got 11 days of holidays and today is the last day. I always get distraction for Christmas holidays and even I have no computer/laptop now so I don't much to be online except with my phone, you know I am bad to blogging with my phone. I got some messages, email, texting and some of you missing me and my blog posts. I am really sorry over that. I might not so often to be here until I have my own computer. But I'm praying for you each time I remember you.

I've been doing well and I'm still working as a tutor for English. I've been watching things that God has been working for me there, if you my last posts then you know that I almost lose my hope to work there but there I can see how God's hands working in me for His glory. 

So many plans that I have for next couple years, sometimes I'm getting scared of it all and so I decided to not thinking of that instead I give it all to God, and I want to thinking more of my relationship with Jesus, dedicate mylife for more to His glory.

My daily life for now only  Jesus and jobs hehe that sound ridiculous, I really miss time being at home and doing  things at home. But I'm so glad this Christmas holiday, I've spent much time with them, as morning  comes I have a  sweet companion for my morning devotion... actually this's my birthday gift that Sean's mom got for me :) ( wondering if any of you have this, it's great devotion book)


Also I've been reading You and Me FOREVER. It's a Christmas gift that Sean got for me. We've been reading this book and sharing our thoughts together 


It's a great book and it's a marriage book - but  actually I can capture from Francis and Lisa that all your life you have it's centered  with your relationship with God, I just loved how they talk about our marriage with God. Church as the Bride and Jesus as the Groom. oh how beautifu and how He loves us! I just cant wait for that moment, I'm getting excited each time I'm thinking of that moment :)

So far it's from me and I hope to be back here soon.

~Here's my scripture of the year that I can share for you~

May he grant you your heart's desire
    and fulfill all your plans!
-Psalm 20:5-


~A Battle~

~And this is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand~

After two months working *sigh* I've been overwhelmed. How so? Well, if I could make a list, there alot of things I missed and longing for. The most I miss is being home and sewing, I feel like I lost my friends too. This job  has given me deal with children and
parents. One day I told my mom that I wanted to resign from this job, I don't think I can do it my best for this. Yes, I've been talking to God every day. But seems my boss wont to let me go, she needs me though I am not as expert as what she thought.

This is the first I am in work-life (you know what I mean) I am not used to with this situation. Now I learn to be grateful in "new" hard situation hehe.  Well, it was Sunday evening where we have family devotion, we read a passage in Joshua 1. There, many times God reminded Joshua " Be strong and courage" before he led God's people to the land that God has promised. In that moment I remembered  a dream, a dream where  I met Jesus. I walked through the long and straight way but then I met big man who wore black outfit and he shoot me with a gun in his hand, then I fell down I thought I died but then I saw an old man gave me his hand when I looked at him - I knew he must be Jesus and he helped me to stand, I thought he was going to walk with me but he let me go by myself and he said "be strong and courage" through the long way it was 3 times I reminded of those words in different place - finally I made it to a place, that I should be there when I came into that room I saw many children, crowded and noisy it looked like a class without control. I saw a little girl scream and other little boys, I was scared, and then I had to deal with them all, and there I thought it was a battle and that's why Jesus said that and reminded me many time. I prayed hard for those students , and deal with them. That's the dream.

God reminded me that dream suddenly - Oh, now I know that it's clearly what God wants me to do. I feel the same situation like in my dream now, and I keep my eyes on Jesus where my strength come from and praying for the students. It's amazing how God has told me before! 

I really need your prayers for me that I have some problem students in the place I work, it makes me scared sometimes. I know I am in a new battle now. I think God is taking me to next level if I could pass  this test.

Thanks for reading this blog after such along time.
I missed all of my blog friends! you're in my prayers.


Beautiful Encounter

Your steadfast love, O LORD, extends to the heavens, your faithfulness to the clouds.
Psalm 36:5

What an amazing God I love! Every journey of my life - He is the part of it.
I'm just happy that I could spending time more in His presence even though I'm working for 9 - 11 hours. There are so many things changing when I spend more time in His presence.

Here's one of the best journey I called it Beautiful Encounter. Dedicated to my Beautiful Savior who has written this part of my life journey, my beautiful and amazing sister Angie Tawera, beautiful people of Encounter Church in Australia and for my special blog friends all over the world.
I'm so blessed that God brought me this beautiful sister....She was in the big part of the journey that God has made for me.

Remember my friend and sister Angie? that I call my spiritual sister? So last month she had mission trip in Indonesia with her team. Couple months before she told me...I was so excited but then she told the mission trip is in Palu which is far from Solo. My spirit was down but then we planed to meet in Bali. Oh well I couldnt promise her that I could come - I had no money to buy flight tickets but she said that praying about this. Yeah through the long conversations and I asked God if He willing me to meet Angie this year(because I wanted too!). Yeah! He did it! I didnt book my flight ticket it's just happened - she asked me to check my email and on Wed 28th I left Solo to Bali I had no idea where I would stay and who would pick me up in the airport at midnight. I know I wouldn't be homeless that God with me even though I had no place to stay I will be OK! I totally walked with faith, I only had some money in my wallet. It would be fine till I meet Angie. 

Oh so I didn't stay with Angie because she was with another pastor this time, and she had to submit under it and obey her leaders during the mission trip. They didnt allow me to stay with Angie in hotel maybe because they shared  the room too. But God always good there's was a family who always wanted me visit me if I come to Bali and I told them a day before just wanted to make sure that I would come. They were so excited to hear I come and they allowed me to stay with them. I made it at that home at 1.30 am the gate was closed - I was so worried if I would spend the whole nigh in the front of the gate...but no, the 5 dogs woke them up with barking, I saw a lady opened the door to me and I talked to her that I told to the host a yesterday...everyone at home was sleeping so she just took me to a room....SURPRISE!!! they prepared me everything in that room, with a big bed, air conditioner, bathroom, water, and oh I felt like heaven! :) God is soo good! that family just so sweet and nice during I stayed with them - they treated me like real family.

The next day - 

I was so worried if I met Angie's friends and they don't like me..it was in my head the whole morning before I left home to the chapel. Angie asked me to meet her there. Alright... " God, I know you made a way to me to come, please let them see You in me...not me...because if they see You I wont be rejected"
Made it! I stood in the from of Mercy Indonesia's gate, I must stood there till Angie come. I saw a car with some people inside the car, and the car stopped...a guy in the front said "Hi Eva" and I smiled, then they got out from car and some of them said hi to me...I saw a guy came to me and hand shake with me....and I saw Angie came and I cried and I hugged her.

"This my pastor..." said Angie
"Oh...hi " ( so he is the pastor...he is so nice) I was little bit shy..

then it helped me to not worries...I got inside the Mercy office and Angie introduced me to everyone. Everyone was so nice and welcomed me. I got to talk to some girls and they are now my best friends.
Lisa. Angie introduced me to to her she was so nice, I was so glad that she liked me to be there, she said I have nice skirt and I told her I made it then our conversation started.
The pastor allowed me to sit beside Angie during the chapel...he was so nice :)

After chapel a girl came to me and she looked so nice to and talked to me, ended with we exchanged the facebook address :D  her name is Sudi :).

I also met the director of Mercy Indonesia and I introduce myself to her. She was nice, she even offered me to sleep there for that night because she wanted to talked to me. I was like oh wow we just met and she wanted me to sleep here and talk to me. Alright, because this is her house I should respect her, and she even welcome me well. Well, I was okay with that but I just so wondering why she wanted talk to me. ( I was worried little bit) 

and .....

I got to talk about that with Angie....we also share the Bible verse...I told Angie that when I came to Bali and no one host me except a family and I wanted to respect them, they prepared me things before I come...and Angie shared a Bible verse about to respect family that had welcomed me a strange town when no one wanted to host m...Ah! I forget that verse!... so I decided that I didnt sleep at Mercy office instead the family where I stayed, they have prepared me things the day before I came. She is Mrs. Olandina with all her granddaughters.  That was a good conversation with Angie about how we respected the host, even Jesus taught it to His disciples.

Here are the girls who host me. Their grandma was not home - it was sad that I couldnt see her. But all of these girls host me well. Thank you Jesus for these beautiful girls. and Mrs. Olandina who allowed me to stay at her house.

After lunch, we went to orphanage. I was amazed that almost girls can talk in English. All of them reminds me of the girls in orphanage here :) and I felt like home when I was there..

That's my first day.

SECOND DAY of Encounter
Sharing testimony - Thank you Judika for tking this picture

Where Angie and team were not there but I must be there to respect that they have welcomed me. We had chapel as normally in the morning. And oh the Madam of Mercy Indoncsia asked me to share the testimony - it's about what God has done to me and my family, my parents's ministries, and what I'm doing now...and while I was talking somebody interrupted me - my eyes tried to find out whose voice and oops it's the Madam's husband he just asked me " Are you ps. Sadrakh's daughter?" then I said yes I am..in that moment I just knew that he's my dad's professor in a seminary school my dad went. I felt that I was not stranger there anymore :).

So after the chapel. Time to meet the Madam, I was nervous wondering what she wanted to ask me since she asked me to stay here for a night. I came into her room. She told me that God spoke to her when the first time she met me, God wanted her to have conversation with me. That's why she asked. I was melting when she said that my beauty comes from the inside, and so she invited me to join her ministries of Mercy Indonesia.  So she wanted me to pray about it.

My heart was so happy! I knew it! That's what I prayed about before I met all Angie's friends that let people see Him in me so that will treat me not as stranger :)

It's almost 10 a.m. I left Mercy office to meet Angie and her team at the hotel. Thank you for my dear sister Sudi that took me there...I was talking to her that I might stay at airport because i didnt want I miss the flight but she offered me her room to sleep and she would take me to airport in th early morning. I was so relieved that I wouldnt be alone at airport during the night.

At the hotel...I saw Angie and pastor and two other guys were talking and I came and said hi for everyone - I saw pastor stood and walked to me but I just gave a handshake and he asked what I have shared in the chapel. I was wondering that pastor was so nice to me - I could see how he looked at has the same way how my dad looked at me of proudness. I remembered that yesterday a friend told me that he has no daughter only a son :) thenI just realized that I should give him a hug. It was late and I told Angie about that...
I just really wanted to say thank you for him that he allowed me to be with Angie and everyone in the team - but I had no idea how should I say.

Perfect timing God has given me!  we went to have fun together with motorbikes around the city we passed the road over the sea.. It was so beautiful.

Here is the long road toll on the sea :) isnt it s beautiful ?

Because Angie was nervous if she had me in the back of the bike then I got to be with pastor. The pastor was so perfect riding the bike! of course!! he has like 3 or 4 bikes at home - that's his hoby. So I felt safe with him. It was perfect time to me to share about me, my parents, and he told his family and ministries:) during we riding the bike. My tears dropped ....I cried because God is sooooo good that He allowed me to meet these beautiful people.  So it was perfect time to say THANK YOU.

"Thank you so much"
"Oh no darling....you're a blessing"

I'm so much blessed - God has done too much for me.

Pastor gave me new name it Eva Newman that i'm his daughter since that day! 

I felt like after met Angie as my spiritual sister last year....now I met my spiritual dad....all of them are my family in Christ.

Beautiful Encounter that God has made to meet this team and family in Bali
This is Lisa - The first time I met her she melted my heart.
She has great heart for kids.
Loving God
and absolutely beautiful inside-out.

Here's Emilia
I love her as my sister :) she really good at beauty and also her heart to God inspiring me. : )Thank you Emilia
With my favorites girls of Mercy Indonesia :)

~ That is all my journey of Beautiful Encounter.
Praying that I could meet them again~

Dear my blog friends,
I'm such a unfaithful friend here that never come and checking on everyone. but I've been thinking of you all and praying for you often. I think I was thinking to make schedule for blogging but it doesnt work so I'll do whenever I can do it.

Thank you for your beautiful comments on my previous post. It all made my day.



~I will sing in the day of trouble that He is faithful~

~ Call upon me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you, and you shall glorify Me~
( Psalm 50:15)

I was in the hard times around in mid of June, I almost thought that God didn't love me at the moment. He might allow me to have tears again when I wanted to be happy but...the sorrow at the time couldnt be compared of what He worked for me on the cross, what all He has done in past that's why I wont give up to love Him. I will love Him no matter how hard it is. I decided to spending time with him more  but again I didnt have space and time (that I live in orphanage, and sleep with the girls). I lost my mind how I could have time with Him. My heart was tired if I thought all these stuff so but then I decided to praying and fasting everyday...I needed to wait all my family went home from their vacation here and I really could have time with Him but I wanted they stay here for longer . Finally they went home, I tried to not much spending time on daily stuff instead, have devotion time and fasting days. I counted that almost 3 weeks I did my fasting and devotion at night while everyone's sleeping.  I was doing that with a friend - she is one of the girls here and she went to seminary school and get to know God more so I invited her that I knew she would be y best partner for this.

One night after dinner I threw up and next day I got sick, and I stopped to fasting and I did my devotion as I could...I was talking to God " Dear Lord God,  I know You love me and just maybe You want to see  me like your beloved Job. I give it all to You, just do as You please for me" I was kind of teasing Him though. lol :D

The next day my dad got a call about paying the bills and some stuff. My heart was so heavy seeing my parents didn't have enough money..."I've been looking for jobs, been praying but seems nothing changing"

"Hold on My beloved" said God.

I just didnt understand Him sometimes...I started to feel people judged me of my faith to Him. I ran to find a spot where I could be alone and it's on the roof...where no one could see me...and I cried but I was still talking to Him "Oh why ?" I started to feel hungry and it made me think the sad things more.

So i just went to sleep after all day. In the morning I checked my email...it's sweet email from one of my blog friends Maryah. She said that she was dreaming of me and she decided to pray for me after that dream and she sent me a passage in Psalm 145 : 8 -12.

The Lord is gracious and merciful;
Slow to anger and great in lovingkindness.
The Lord is good to all,And His mercies are over all His works.
All Your works shall give thanks to You, O Lord,And Your godly ones shall bless You.
They shall speak of the glory of Your kingdomAnd talk of Your power;
To make known to the sons of men [a]Your mighty actsAnd the glory of the majesty of [b]Your kingdom.

I felt that God remembered me at the moment. So my heart full with songs just because I was reminded that He still there for me. Thank you Maryah, I know God used you for this. 

The next couple days I got a very very great news ...it made me soooo happy I even got tears of joy. Sean's coming to see me and my family!!! My parents already knew it clearly and they tried hiding me, I thought he wouldn't come but he did and the mission is failed so it's my turned to surprise him at the airport. It was beautiful time my whole family came to airport and picked him, they planed to filming and got pictures but it was precious moment everyone's crying because we never met before  since the first time he helped me. ( click Love Story to read how I met him) it took for 5 years that I had never met him in person but finally God allowed it. It was just beautiful..it was like in movie when the first time I met him and hugged him. Oh finally! God has been so faithful we all cried.  I uploaded my picture with him on facebook and I got respond from my friends - they called me on the phone and cried  (especially my college friends they know my struggle for 5 years) so we cried together :) it's just beautiful.

So he was here for a week and it was my first time to dating a guy that also the man after God's own heart - I'm glad to see how God made it so beautiful. Sean served my family, and I was so relieved to know my family loves him and he also loves my family.  On Sunday service, he shared his powerful testimony of knowing God when he was 16 - he was unexpected baby but God sent him to this world for His great purpose!  I tried to hold my tears because it was surprise for me I just heard the testimony in detail... it's always beauiful of how God calling someone to be His forever. 

My most favorite part was when we went to my favorite place in the early morning of the last day before he back to US. It's kind of small field behind my house, you just can see the beauty of the Lord when you there....haha the girls in orphanage told him that it's my favorite place and he asked me to go in the early morning to watch the sunrise and we could share our devotional time and tea morning. I woke up so early and got ready and there we spent time together with God and my dog :) when we were reading our Bible..the sun was rising up and it was so beautiful. We have so many sweet memories together. We both praying for the day God will unite us as one.

Now we can see the lens of God's heart that He is beautiful

I was so happy but actually I still have one burden in my heart about helping my family. It's just crazy because two days later after Sean went back to US - I got a call to work. I got a job now, I work in Kumon as English teacher. " Wow! Thank you Lord, but i feel like it's your turn to teasing on me" :) 

So that's why Ive been not blogging too much! 
Thank you for Amy - Anne Williams that you always ask about me :) I'll be back to you.


I havent be able to send all the rewards stuff, I will still think about to send it soon - sorry for being late.
Thank you for Lizzie and Mrs. Karen for helping Sean to his project. You will will have rewards from him soon.

I'll be back next week - It's Muslin Celebration and I get one week off from work. I have missed coming to everyone's blogs. So get ready!



Things Update: ( Announce & I leave this blog)

My Dear Friends,

I'm really sorry for not taking care of my blog since few weeks ago. I just wanted to say thank you for all your prayers for Sean, he is now in Cambodia if you wondering you can click here to see some of his pictures of Cambodia.
 And I want to announce that here are some names that I will send them the rewards ( sorry that I'm late for posting this)

1. Karen from Beatrice Euphemie Vintage Cottage Style
2. Lizzie from His Redeemed Child
3.Gerry Michalski
4. Faith from Princess Faith
5. Elizabeth Wowor

I cant say enough thank you for all your helps. Thank you so much!

Please send me your home address at delvalina37@gmail.com

I will send the rewards on July

I have lot things to do my friends, very and super hard to get into computer. I only can check all online stuff through my phone. some of you are in my mind. Sorry for not visiting you.

I'm not able to check everyone's post except it goes to my email. I will leave this blog till next month hopefully.

Please praying for me during the hard times but God is too beautiful and not compares with things I've been through.

Love you & Blessing