"And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose."
(Romans 8:28) ESV
I back to this blog many times to write; before Chrismtas, during Christmas, and after Christmas, It all didn't work ( tried couple times to write...but when I re-read before post I decided not to post it. It happened many times. Ashamed! (I am not so good at managing my blog, I wish I could like some of you). And tonight I am trying to back again, and I hope I could finish well.
As you know, I am engaged and it was like boom when I wrote here the whole story of what God has done. Some people or probably myself will like "whats next?". We (Sean & I) have planned the wedding far before he proposed me. It didnt go for details until we were sure. Especially when people asked about us. I wish I could satisfy people with the surely answers. We kept plan and we answered people just like we planned. There were two things in my heart. First, I wished I knew God's mystery plans for our future, then the second is I wish we could easily married like others.
"Well God, next time if people ask me what should I say? I probably say...if Lord's willing or I have no idea... I surrender..." but God spoke me "there's nothing wrong with your answers - I just wanted to show you how I work and mold you. Thats it. Then in time people will understand through you how I worked. "
How easily when I encouraged people and write on my blog...but when it comes to me...it mess me up and I get to struggle with it. But I'm so thankful that we call Him rock and our secret place. There's a hope when we call His name.
On January 3rd, we had our celebration with my indonesian family and friends. We planned to do it since most of them wont see me in my big day.
|With my family|
|People praying for us|
|you see how proud I was to stand next to him, not married yet but soon! and God has blessed my heart with this beautiful man|
On January 5th, I flew to Jakarta for my visa stuff. I'm so grateful to see how God worked so far...I was in hard times before knew that USCIS approved but I would never knew how God's heart to me if I never been in that process :) 7 days from today I will go for my interview in US Embassy here. This is the last part that we have been waiting before we plan our wedding for details. Yay! Prayers will be appreciated for my moving to US.
These are what God has taught me during one of these days, well, He has taught me before but once the storms come I forget what He has taught me before. I know that probably I am not His smart student but I am still His favorite one and He is great teacher of mine. He keeps remind me how to do this and that, He shows me the way when I get lost again and again.
If I things went exactly as I planned, I never knew how God worked. ( Proverbs 16:9)
When in the hard times I almost thought that God didnt love me and it broke His heart. Then He amazed by showing me His heart broken and yet still He loved me and forgave me. Even He showed me again and again. ( Malachi 1:2)
When I started to compare my life with someone else's then He reminded me The Parable of the Bags of Gold (Matt 25:14-30).
God works things for our good.