~I will sing in the day of trouble that He is faithful~

~ Call upon me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you, and you shall glorify Me~
( Psalm 50:15)

I was in the hard times around in mid of June, I almost thought that God didn't love me at the moment. He might allow me to have tears again when I wanted to be happy but...the sorrow at the time couldnt be compared of what He worked for me on the cross, what all He has done in past that's why I wont give up to love Him. I will love Him no matter how hard it is. I decided to spending time with him more  but again I didnt have space and time (that I live in orphanage, and sleep with the girls). I lost my mind how I could have time with Him. My heart was tired if I thought all these stuff so but then I decided to praying and fasting everyday...I needed to wait all my family went home from their vacation here and I really could have time with Him but I wanted they stay here for longer . Finally they went home, I tried to not much spending time on daily stuff instead, have devotion time and fasting days. I counted that almost 3 weeks I did my fasting and devotion at night while everyone's sleeping.  I was doing that with a friend - she is one of the girls here and she went to seminary school and get to know God more so I invited her that I knew she would be y best partner for this.

One night after dinner I threw up and next day I got sick, and I stopped to fasting and I did my devotion as I could...I was talking to God " Dear Lord God,  I know You love me and just maybe You want to see  me like your beloved Job. I give it all to You, just do as You please for me" I was kind of teasing Him though. lol :D

The next day my dad got a call about paying the bills and some stuff. My heart was so heavy seeing my parents didn't have enough money..."I've been looking for jobs, been praying but seems nothing changing"

"Hold on My beloved" said God.

I just didnt understand Him sometimes...I started to feel people judged me of my faith to Him. I ran to find a spot where I could be alone and it's on the roof...where no one could see me...and I cried but I was still talking to Him "Oh why ?" I started to feel hungry and it made me think the sad things more.

So i just went to sleep after all day. In the morning I checked my email...it's sweet email from one of my blog friends Maryah. She said that she was dreaming of me and she decided to pray for me after that dream and she sent me a passage in Psalm 145 : 8 -12.

The Lord is gracious and merciful;
Slow to anger and great in lovingkindness.
The Lord is good to all,And His mercies are over all His works.
All Your works shall give thanks to You, O Lord,And Your godly ones shall bless You.
They shall speak of the glory of Your kingdomAnd talk of Your power;
To make known to the sons of men [a]Your mighty actsAnd the glory of the majesty of [b]Your kingdom.

I felt that God remembered me at the moment. So my heart full with songs just because I was reminded that He still there for me. Thank you Maryah, I know God used you for this. 

The next couple days I got a very very great news ...it made me soooo happy I even got tears of joy. Sean's coming to see me and my family!!! My parents already knew it clearly and they tried hiding me, I thought he wouldn't come but he did and the mission is failed so it's my turned to surprise him at the airport. It was beautiful time my whole family came to airport and picked him, they planed to filming and got pictures but it was precious moment everyone's crying because we never met before  since the first time he helped me. ( click Love Story to read how I met him) it took for 5 years that I had never met him in person but finally God allowed it. It was just beautiful..it was like in movie when the first time I met him and hugged him. Oh finally! God has been so faithful we all cried.  I uploaded my picture with him on facebook and I got respond from my friends - they called me on the phone and cried  (especially my college friends they know my struggle for 5 years) so we cried together :) it's just beautiful.

So he was here for a week and it was my first time to dating a guy that also the man after God's own heart - I'm glad to see how God made it so beautiful. Sean served my family, and I was so relieved to know my family loves him and he also loves my family.  On Sunday service, he shared his powerful testimony of knowing God when he was 16 - he was unexpected baby but God sent him to this world for His great purpose!  I tried to hold my tears because it was surprise for me I just heard the testimony in detail... it's always beauiful of how God calling someone to be His forever. 

My most favorite part was when we went to my favorite place in the early morning of the last day before he back to US. It's kind of small field behind my house, you just can see the beauty of the Lord when you there....haha the girls in orphanage told him that it's my favorite place and he asked me to go in the early morning to watch the sunrise and we could share our devotional time and tea morning. I woke up so early and got ready and there we spent time together with God and my dog :) when we were reading our Bible..the sun was rising up and it was so beautiful. We have so many sweet memories together. We both praying for the day God will unite us as one.

Now we can see the lens of God's heart that He is beautiful

I was so happy but actually I still have one burden in my heart about helping my family. It's just crazy because two days later after Sean went back to US - I got a call to work. I got a job now, I work in Kumon as English teacher. " Wow! Thank you Lord, but i feel like it's your turn to teasing on me" :) 

So that's why Ive been not blogging too much! 
Thank you for Amy - Anne Williams that you always ask about me :) I'll be back to you.


I havent be able to send all the rewards stuff, I will still think about to send it soon - sorry for being late.
Thank you for Lizzie and Mrs. Karen for helping Sean to his project. You will will have rewards from him soon.

I'll be back next week - It's Muslin Celebration and I get one week off from work. I have missed coming to everyone's blogs. So get ready!



Regine Karpel said...

A blessing you are!

Faith said...

Aww this post......<3
It made me both very happy and very sad at the same time.
I'm so sorry to hear of your heavy heart but I am relieved to see that this post ended on a good note.God is faithful. Never forget that.
Also, I love the picture!!!! Awwwwww you guys are so cute! Was that really your first time meeting in person? That's adorable. I pray that God would bless you two and work things out:)
Praying for you always my friend. God bless!

Jenna Condon said...

So cute! So happy for you


Valerie said...

What a beautiful, beautiful post. My heart hurts for you and your dear family. I'm so glad that you got to see your Sean. How special. Will be thinking of you. Sending hugs and special prayers your way sweet friend. Your picture is just lovely.'Blessings, Valerie

Arystha said...

Aaaaah dear Kak Eva, this is a very great post and soooo lovely, and I miss you so much! You have to know that I, almost everyday, check your blog and find no new post and I feel like 'Something happened to my internet access and browser so I can't see the new blog post of Kak Eva'. LOL. Think I'll give you double bigger hugs if you're right here hihihi. Good luck for Kumon, Kak, I may come to be your student :D
Jesus bless you!♥♥

Sola Scriptura said...

Congratulations on meeting your love in person. How exciting! Hugs to you.

Emily said...

This was a lovely post, I'm so pleased that you've been guided into this next stage of God's plan for you. Even in times of trouble we can always remember that "Surely there is a future, and your hope will not be cut off" (Proverbs 23:18) - and you saw that in these past few months! Congratulations on your new job, by the way :) xx

Stephanie said...

Hello my sister! Words cannot begin to describe the joy I have for you. I was happy when I read your post, but also sad because I feel so out of touch with you and I don't know how this has happened... I have been praying for you and Sean as I knew he would be there with you and my heart rejoices to know it was a precious visit. I am praying God will have His perfect way in your life and in Sean's. He has great things in store for you, my dear friend, and I am praying for His very best. He will always love you, no matter what, even when He seems "silent."

You are forever in my heart. I love you!

CelestinaMarie@SouthernDayDreams said...

Hi Delvalina,
Your post is just lovely and I am so happy for you to meet up with your dear friend. Your pic is beautiful and easy to see what a happy time it was. Just remember, God is always with you no matter what the struggle. HE will show you the way and give many blessings when we listen with our heart. Everything in HIS time!! Wishing you much love and prayers come your way.
Thank you for stopping by and your kind comment. So nice to see you!!
Hugs and Blessings

Karla Jeane said...

Awwweee, happy tears! <3 God bless you both! A beautiful tomorrow awaits! <3

Beatrice Euphemie said...

Dear Delvalina,
I am so happy that you had this time with your beloved Sean and that God has answered your prayers with a new job! I am also praying for you and your family and wishing you many more blessings in the days to come. Your beautiful heart deserves to be happy.
Big hug, xo Karen

Denise said...

Dearest beautiful Delvalina.I'm hoping Your computer continues to work.I would be so sad to not hear from You any more.I have truly grown to love You through Christ as a Granddaughter. Even when You go through hard times-Christ shines right through You-You are one of His favored.I'm so happy to hear You have fallen in love.He flew all the way from the US to meet You :) How fun and romantic.The Lord is watching over not only You but Your family and Your Boyfriend.Blessings sweet darling girl. Love Grandma Denise

Amy-Anne Williams said...

Aw, this is so cute!!

Best wishes,

Amy // The Blog Hermit

July A. Emmance said...

You have a beautiful heart and you are SOOO inspiring to me. Thank you so much for being willing to open up your heart to us and share your thoughts. Your outlook on life is very insightful. And that is amazing that you were allowed to meet with your friend Sean. I love the dress you're wearing in the picture!
Love, July from julyaemmance.blogspot.com

Patty Sumner said...

Delvalina, I was just browsing through my followers and saw your name.. I wanted to come and visit.. I pray all is well and things are slowing down for you.. I pray God is revealing himself to you daily through His Word...Through His people and through His creation.. God is all around us!! I think sometimes we are always looking for a miracle instead of just seeking and walking with the Lord daily. He pursues us and wants a love relationship with us that is real and personal.. I believe you are seeking God and I believe He is there with you.. Every day as we awake is a new day to live for the Lord!.. Live each day to the fullest for Him! He has plans for you! Shine for Him today with you sweet spirit and smile! Let him flow through you to touch others.. Blessings!

Ceil said...

Hi Delvalina! So wonderful to read your story lately...what a change of fortune! I am so happy that you finally got to see your Sean in person, and your family got to be there too. And a job too? God is so faithful!
It's so hard to wait for his timing, I know that believe me. I am so grateful that you have wonderful things to report, and that a smile is back on your face.
Blessings to you!

Jedidja said...

Thank for this lovely post.

Hannah Scarlett said...

I wish I could see the post about how you two met! The link isn't working for me...
Oh, this nearly made me cry it was so beautiful. I can't wait to hear updates from you.


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