~I am back: Thankful for you~

My sweetest friends, I'm back just because each of you can't stop to encouraging me here. Your emails and comments made my day, and how could I stay for longer out of the blog without giving you my appreciations. You all are blessing to me, I'm so thankful for you. God has blessed me with wonderful blog friends.

Before I say my thankful for you please allow to share what has been with me.

Few months ago, as I started to walk through this year. There was excitement in my heart about things that God is going to do for me this year and also for the next couple years.  I am not sure yet but I just believe it. But you know when the storm comes and hit you again. I am kind of person who easily to worry "how about...what if...can I...will it be..." those things are in my head like everyday, and I've been struggling with my fears.

I started to find a job, few months ago. I was hoping that I can help my parents ministries with my own money someday...but it seemed nothing. So I pushed myself so hard to find a job. I got one, but then it was going as what I didn't expected. My parents were happy already, that I got in to the training of the job but the after I figured out all procedures, I realized that they were trying to get me as client. I called my mom in that office and I said sorry because they were excited already. It's funny though, I laughed to myself, but yes inside i cried and my soul is tired. It consumed my energy and I didnt have time with my Lord and now I got this.

One day, there was a problem here in the orphanage it was because miss understanding among the staff and I was in middle it made me guilty. It all in my mind, and my head even more at nights. I felt that my life was falling apart and lost on my way, I didnt know what to do. I know God can do this and that but as not simple as what I thought. I just couldnt reach His mind.
So it was hard get myself and enjoyed things like blogging (you know..I would only post the sad things about me because it all was in my head) so I decided to not blogging, and other stuff with computer.

I decided to have fun with God for more...I wanted to forget my life and enjoy the more time in His presence, meditate on His word ...there... where I found peace, joy, restoration.

I just understood then that God was trying to change my mind about life - Loving Him more and how to serve Him. One night I dream that I met an old man, he was filled with Spirit of God and talked to me, He said that I don't need trying hard to find happy life because God has provided to His children. One thing I need to know is how to serve God with all my heart.

I am not really sure about what my dream means but I keep seeking His face and delight Him with all I am. You know...the next day the unbelievable things happened, I felt God's moving in the atmosphere, I could feel Him really close as my close as my skin. After He changed my mind and heart then He started to change the situation.

Oh!! satan won't give up either, he has been trying to put me down...again and again. It makes me laughed so hard...I feel like he's stupid because once he knock me down once again I'm made stronger. Haha...but yeah..it was his job...stealing my peace and kicked me out from God. Praying and meditate on His word is my main guns for him.


So my friends, I am back now to be with you in the battle. Thank you for always being here for me.

Oh anyway, God has blessed me and I am now join the sewing course - I'm just happy working with sewing stuff, I have wanted since I was so young, but with the school stuff I was not able. God has blessed me to joing this course. And I am just happy to work with fabric, ornaments and my own creation, and imagination. Well, will see where God brings me next :)

~Thankful For You~

For Stephanie

You are such a sweet sister and friend. Thank you for encouraging me always in good and bad times. We always connected in Spirit. You're my inspiration too, and such a role model as wife and mother.

For Ceil

Thank you so much for the prayers during the hard times and always trying to connected with me. Thank you for asking when the volcano eruption. Praise Jesus we're safe though we got rain ashes. I always read your post in my email and I was just overwhelmed to respond it. Thank you for your ministry through blogging. You are just blessing to the ladies here.

For Karen
Thank you for the prayers and thank you for thinking of me. I have missed your pictures that bring peace to me.

For Mrs. Pam
Thank you for sharing me Proverbs 31 Ministries. It's my favorite blog now. I always love talking to you. Thank you for the encouragements words and prayers.

For Des
You are sweet friend :) thank you for thinking of me. And for the Sunshine Award. I feel honored and touched, I never expected before that you count on me. :) Guess what? I'm now in sewing course!!!! you are one of the ladies who inspired me to do this. Thank you for the amazing blog and sewing that you've ever shared to me.

For Princess Faith
You are truly the Princess of God. You are good friend. Sometimes I found we had similar things, I think we could be great friend if God allows me to meet you. Thank you for always come when I need support here. I love your BW pictures. :)

For Hilda
Thank you for being great friend and sister here. Thank you for always makes me smile and sometimes laugh with you posts. I still wanted to post my review of your book. I'm really sorry that I was not able. Your love to God and family really inspiring me.

For Olga
Thanks for being loyal friend here and always support me here. I missed so much your fashion style, and fashion of the world cultures.

For Elizabeth
Thank you Libby that mostly asking "how are you?" and talk in email :)
I havent tried the recipe that you shared but it always in my mind. Waiting for the good time to make it.

For Mrs. Terra
Mrs Terra thank you for your encouragement posts here. You're a blessing to me :)

For Mrs. Karen.
I have missed your inspiring blog posts. Your blessing stories, the pictures too, and Scriptures and prayers.

For Lizzie,
I'm sorry that I could not visit your blog. I watched the Winter's Tale trailer and thinking of you :) Have you heard that movie?

For Alex,
I missed your amazing pictures and inspiring vintage style. I adore your tutorial about the make up beauty that you've shared other day. I must say that you have many fans on Pinterets but some of you don't know you yet. How do I know it? hmm I have board about about and I have some friend who sometimes pinned your picture lol :D

For Ayu
Gimana skripsimu dek? ternyata ka eva belum bisa lanjut nulis karena kesibukan lain. :) keep praying for your thesis.

For Maryah,
I missed talking to you too, thank you for sharing your mission trip on Rep. Dominican. You are such a blesssing for them. I can see Christ shine through you.

And for other friends that I could not really mentioned you here. I really appreciate you.

You all in my prayers!

Much Love
Delvalina