The Awesome Perfect Designer ♥

Have you not known? Have you not heard?
    The LORD is the everlasting God,
        the Creator of the ends of the earth.
    He does not faint or grow weary;
        his understanding is unsearchable.
    He gives power to the faint,
        and to him who has no might he increases strength.
    Even youths shall faint and be weary,
        and young men shall fall exhausted;
    but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength;
        they shall mount up with wings like eagles;
    they shall run and not be weary;
        they shall walk and not faint.
(Isaiah 40:28-31 ESV)

As a young lady who owns dreams, passions, and desire, I am worried to much about my future. Last night I was talking with my best friend Sean, we talked about our plans in the future, and dreams and everything that needs HOPE to achieve them. But it the ends of our talk we read Psalm 42 which is strengthen us. 

Sometimes my future seems would be good, sometimes dreams in the future beats my heart, and sometime not sure and confusing...it always comes cross my mind every night before I sleep, and it ended up with   "God, I want to be what You want me to be and not what I want to be"

All the times I never know what's in our future but He wants me to believe and faith in heart. Believe that He is King of Glory who designs our story, future, and the life line. Then why did my soul cast down for these little things?   

The flash back story :

It's exactly a year ago when I wanted to apply my internship. Well, I have prayed about my internship since my first year in the University but 3 months before the internship month I was desperate looking for internship place that really appropriate with my major study, but like every where rejected me.  It seemed God was silent to me, and was not working though I have asked Him desperately. But who can reach His thoughts? that is how He always works for me...it looks crazy but at the end it's beautiful. Then I gave up, won't care everything about the internship stuff anymore... I was trying to forget those all, because I won't grumble all the times.

After a week I met  my friend, in a class, we were in a same class at the time...at the time I decided to sit in back nearby her, coz she welcome me with her smile that day. The class was going each eye look ahead to the white hair man, wore glasses and had silk trousers ...yeah he was the professor who was talking in the front. So am I, I was quiets and focus to him, but suddenly she thrusts me a piece of paper which is written.

" how are you? how's your internship plan? " 

Oh well, I was about to not answering her question, I focused to every word or my professor said, but the last question turned my attention, and then I took my pen and started to reply...we both kept writing about internship, I told her about the last 3months and everything that has happened and the last question of her is

" do you want to go with me for internship in Bali, I've been looking for a friend who be able to accompany me but like no one..."   

I wrote YES!!! YES!!! with the big size of fonts., after class finished I took my phone and called my mom and told her what just happened to me, and God has made a way for to have an internship in Bali, mom and me cried with laughing...she cried because she has been trying to contact everywhere if any place can receive me for internship. Well God is soo good.  I did'n t know why God put me in Bali, I didnt want to know all that I wanted to do was prepare everything for this internship.

In the end of July, I took flight to Bali the place where I did my internship was Consulate General of East Timor... so many thing Gad has done for there...I met awesome people in office, I even got more experiences as international relations student...I was absolutely in grateful for every blessing...I never thought before that God will do that for me, even the Madam Chair threat me like her daughter and everyone's there is just like family.  It was the first time, I met people that I have learned in my studies...isn't this double portion blessings ???

This picture when I talked with Mr. President of East Timor Ramos Horta
It was my frist time talking with president  :O

And this is when my birthday, and people in the office just surprised me with the cake.
She is the Madam Chair of General Consulate of East Timor
Maria Olandina Alves Caeiro
The beautiful woman who inspiring me for being Godly woman, Mother, and Carrier woman.
This relationship being continue.
I met her as stranger but I left her as family.
God is beautiful indeed

Here is I am was with Madam Chair's mom.
I  called her Avo which is mean Grandma :)
, it was Sunday morning when I was out with her family
I've been missing her a lot.

 So I went back from Bali, and I met some friends in Campus...and like everyone said
" Oh we never know that God worked it out for you, we knew that you have tried everywhere but God has planed it for you..."
" Oh...you met Ramos Horta, how lucky you are!"

And from this all God must be glorified! ♥

( this This blog " Jesus, I need You"   was written when I was desperate for my studies and internship ] you may check that out :) )

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The last when I was worried too much about my future and everything in the future, God reminded me this again, even more than this. God has designed it all for us...even when we were in our mom's womb. 

He is Perfect Designer of our life, the what shall we fear? No matter how it looks for now...believe that God is taking control of this universe.. Our God is Greater :)

The last night was ended with this verse
Psalm 42 : 11
( This verse is in Indonesian I put it on my desk)
 Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
    for I will yet praise him,
    my Savior and my God.  

God is just so awesome and beautiful though sometimes we forget that He is the Perfect Designer of story, though sometimes we forget that He is the One who holds the universe, But He always reminds us through His words who strengthen us and with what He has done in past that He saved us.

Dear my Awesome Perfect Designer,I am ready to be beautiful in Your hands.and all for the glory of Your name ♥

Much Love,

Delvalina