~Raise The White Flag ~

It’s morning 3.15 am ...when I saw my blue clock that hang on the wall.  It’s a beautiful time to begin your day with God.

“Oh my Jesus...good morning”
“Good morning My precious” ( smiling )
“all I want to do now is delight You in this early morning”
“well then come to Me, I would love to spend time with you”

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Worship was lifted up to the Glory of His name...some songs were in my mouth. 

Now I started to pray...(time to talk to him, pour out my heart to Him)

I was silent for a minute and thinking “Oh Lord God, I do always mention these things when I pray. I hope You still want to hear me” suddenly teary

I didn’t speak any words in my prayer. But this is inside my heart it came out with tears on my face when I was praying.

Dear Lord Jesus,
You know I am weak, that’s why I never stop come to you. I never stop come to you because you are the center of it all. So, I won’t stop begging you.
If I can make a list of the things I should pray, it’ll never find the end...and  it everyday makes me say “ I need You Lord, I need Your mercy”
Sometimes I said
“ God, I want to do this. Please help me”
“God I want it, can You make it be mine?”
“God I need this, would You provide this”
“God, can You make it works ?”
“God please give me that, I really need that”
God... God.... and God!  Feeling  like treat Him as my helper robbot that must and can do anything I want without see His responds
“oh where are You? Are You there and listening to me?”
Oh it’s selfish me... “but God, I can’t do this without You, please come to me and tell me what I should do” “please just come and tell me what You want me to do...I am tired of this” (sobbing)

Surrender...

Surrender...

I want you to let it go

It’s hard to hold my dreams... I raise my white flag in this battle, I can’t fight anymore for my dreams but I still have a hope in You, I want to let it go and I want to walk with You wherever You go...all that I know I’ll be joyful with You no matter what.

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This story always in my mind, but I don’t know how to write about this mind in words...but a song inspiring me to write this called “White Flag” By Passion 268 generation. It’s a beautiful song...we raise our white flag to God, and God won the battle on the Cross. He is glorious! He is glorious!

Here is the lyric of “White Flag”

The battle rages on 

As storm and tempests roar

The battle rages on

As storm and tempest roar

We cannot win this fight

Inside our rebel hearts

We're laying down our weapons now.

Chorus:

We raise our white flag

We surrender

All to You

All for You

We raise our white flag

The war is over

Love is come

Your love has won!

Here on this Holy ground

You made a way for peace

Laying your body down

You took our rightful place

This freedom song is marching on

Chorus:

We raise our white flag

We surrender

All to You

All for You

We raise our white flag

The war is over

Love is come

Your love has won!

We lift the cross

Lift it high lift it high (x5)

“Dear Lord Jesus, I raise my white flag too for attending Passion Conference in Atlanta...It’s hard to go to U.S, I want You won it to me too” :)

Because You gladly lean to lead the humble
I shall gladly kneel to leave my pride

~Blessing~